October 19, 2012 § Leave a comment
Today my HBO Go brought me a film about a man who is so much like me. Alan Berliner.
He made a movie called Wide Awake. It’s about him and his insomnia.
It’s more like an artistic vlog-like story about an author-character than like a documentary. But it’s worth watching. You can follow him in his journey through doctors’ offices, arguments with tired but still understanding wife and mother, who, due to some theories, is partially responsible for his adult son’s insomnia. It’s about destruction of social life caused by this disease (?), about collecting obsession and imaginary ways of cheating Death.
It inspired me to make a couple of resolutions. Starting tommorow with a walk in the morning.
October 15, 2012 § Leave a comment
October 14, 2012 § Leave a comment
I should’ve already gone to sleep, of course, but I haven’t yet.
I finished reading Rant by Chuck Palahniuk about two hours ago and it doesn’t want to get out of my head.
It’s a strange story about a boy nicknamed Rant who lets animals bite him so that he feels anything different from the ordinary. He gets rabies which mutates inside his organism and later becomes epidemic.
When he gets older, he runs to „the City”, where he becomes on of the party crashers – people taking part in a weird car-game.
Once Rant leaves Middleton for “the city,” already infected with rabies, he gets involved with the Party Crashers. Bored with life and looking to meet people (!), the Crashers play bumper cars with their real cars, smashing into each other in an elaborate game that’s part prank, part performance art, part bonding ritual. Sometimes the players even dress up and pretend to be part of wedding parties: Picture both men and women dressed as brides “throwing white rice to hurt.” [Popmatters]
What is the most disturbing after having read Rant a few weeks after Survivor is this thought: many of these peculiar, dark events that Palahniuk writes about could be happening right outside my window.
October 9, 2012 § Leave a comment
Yesterday I came back home rather early – the only course I was to attend came out to be cancelled. So I grabbed a cup of coffee and took subway home.
I was going to do some research for my thesis for today’s presentation on the seminar and, after that, relax with a book (Chuck Palahniuk’s Rant – I do recommend).
But entrepreneur’s life is full of worries. Especially the one new to the business. I suffered from an unexpected attack of doubts. I imagined myself cleaning glasses in a pub untill the end of my days, without any serious job, broke, and even more miserable. Luckily, a friend gave me a few tips about basic marketing (thanks, K.) and I started working on a project that might bring me some customers.
The next thing I remember is me standing up from behind the desk at 2 o’clock. What I had done in those two hours was hardly anything – my time disappeared while I was soaked in by Youtube (KEXP lives – I do recommend) and all the boundaries of the Internet.
But this day will be different. Time for work – fixed. Time for relax – fixed. No more mixing one with another. No more unwelcome pangs of conscience.